I am awake now

Hoping to hear your voice to ease my troubled mind and set the wars in my head to peace

I lay down

Close my eyes and believe that I may never be the same as I miss you and your every little piece

I don’t understand

If the stars have planned

To get us together somehow

I am awake now

…

I am awake now

Are you awake in your bed and thinking as I am and wishing that there would be a light to show us the way

To smoother grounds?

Time cheats us every moment as I pray and hope and sing and watch the night turn into day

Leave the old track

And never look back

Forget everything somehow

I am awake now

…

I am awake now

And my heart would never let my soul sleep again with your face in the depths of my mind

Or even allow

The shadow of darkness to linger in my head with the traces of my steps washed and left behind

All your fears

Shall forever disappear

If you believe in my vow

I am awake now

All the pages that I wrote has ink spilled all over them and it is such a mess

No point in calling out for help as I know those words are lost forever

I pile and flung them out of the window before they cause me any more stress

And let any man who finds them try and put them back together

Not a single song will let me heal myself now from the memories of their light

The words keep jumping in my head to help me realize just how fickle a lonely heart can be

So I erase the words from my mind but keep them as a photograph when the day turns slowly into night

Unfortunately, I can’t breathe as easy as I used to for everyone has left and everything has gone away from me

And once those words have flown out of my pen, I don’t believe they’ll ever flow out again

Though you’d never understand how much those words meant to me as I wrote them

What has been left here in this wreck is nothing but a lasting sense of hurt, suffering and pain

Well I guess I would have to start anew for sooner I let go of those memories, the faster I would become who I am

In a little cage, I kept a tiny bird

Sang the sweetest songs that I have ever heard

Born with red feathers and a golden beak

A perfect companion I never had to seek

I fed and looked after her day and night

But she always yearned the freedom of the flight

And though it hurt to see her in such a pain

I knew she was safer here than back out again

So I tried my best to make her feel at home

But her heart was in the skies and always felt alone

So one day I opened the door of her cage a little bit

To see if she loved the cage or wanted to get out of it

She flew away in an instant without a passing glance

I wondered if she was always waiting for a chance

And I saw her fly in little circles to express her joy

Reminded of the time when I was a little boy

Now she’s on her own and not within my sight

I don’t know if hunger can be cured by the freedom of the flight

For I know she isn’t brave enough to stay up in a fight

I don’t know if she’ll ever find a shelter to sleep at night

It has been almost a year now since I last heard her voice

It may have been difficult but I think she made the right choice

The journey will be difficult but she will come out strong

The cage was her prison. The sky is where she belongs

When the stars have all disappeared

And the night is on its last leg

I wouldn’t have a single memory

Which I would like to borrow or beg

Except for those little dreams

Which I lived with open eyes

While my heart played a simple song

To silence my poor soul’s cries

For my happiness is attached

To a word I do not expect

I may have heard it a thousand times

But not in the same context

Though it shall hurt me to think

That it may forever be this way

I couldn’t help but smile thinking

That she loved me for a day

I see her face amidst the light

Of a star-studded night

And her voice is like an angel that I hold divine

Asking me if I could cross the line

And make her mine

And take her in my arms and let her shine. Let her shine

…

And I know that a day will come

When we will become

A fallen star on the edge of an unwanted time

So let me stand through this pain

For it’ll never come again

She helps me to forget all that will hurt me. So I let her shine

…

When the rain falls on her face

There is no other place

That I would rather be in that moment of time

Every little hole in my heart

Is crying for a start

And the moon paints a picture of her soul. So I let her shine