Lost in the woods alone I stand
With night sky overhead
Not so far away a river streams
With water of bloody red
The birds are quiet or may be dead
The trees are spitting fire
The bugs they bite my legs and hands
In this flaming empire
Fail I do to understand
The cause for hollow screams
The winds they seem to never tire
To ridicule my dreams
2 voices in my head
Haunt me night and day
One tells tales of horror
The other of decay
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2 voices in my head
Do not let me sleep
They show me the consequences
Of the secrets that I keep
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2 voices in my head
Torture my mind
One acts very selfish
The other acts unkind
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2 voices in my head
Have found a home to stay
They’ll be with me forever
I know they won’t betray
My heart knows a silent place
‘Tis lonely and devoid of light
There I find my peace and space
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Twenty three floors but no staircase
Not a living being in sight
My heart knows a silent place
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The thoughts are left for me to chase
The birds sing so quiet
There I find my peace and space
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Devil presents his fruitless case
No God to match his might
My heart knows a silent place
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No single memory to erase
Windows, they whisper all night
There I find my peace and space
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I wear a mask and hide my face
The roofs, they leak of fright
My heart knows a silent place
There I find my peace and space
Sometimes, it gets so lonely in the night
Without you to hold and show me the light
I promise you I would be all right
If you would be my queen, I’d be your knight
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Sometimes, I get so upset and I don’t know why
I’m not myself no matter how hard I try
Not being with you is a good reason to die
If you were with me, I promise I won’t cry
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I always feel so happy when I am with you
For all my little wishes seem to come true
There is nothing more that I would like to do
If you would love me, I’d love you too
All the people that I tagged as friends
Are now laughing back at me
They stare into the distance
The distance that now is me
I don’t really have a companion
No solid shoulder to cry on
No one to hear my story
When I wake up lonely at dawn
Do I really even sleep at night?
Am I permanently dreamed?
I caught foxes in my head last night
While their mother quietly screamed
I don’t want someone to ask me
If I could see the light
Just someone to hold me in the dark
And everything will be alright
There are gaps between my fingers
That are too large for you to fill
You’d wake up smiling tomorrow
But I’d be crying still
There are holes in my heart
That are too large for you to fill
You’d wake up smiling tomorrow
I don’t know if I ever will
Sometimes I look up at the sky
And I don’t really know why
There is not a hero in me
The sun is high
I want it green
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When my feet land on the soil
The ground doesn’t shake in turmoil
No villains, dark enemies, no
Evil plan to foil
No grandeur show
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In my bed, I lie alone
No windy cape, no flying throne
Why does it have to be so quiet?
I’ll chase a stone
In the starry night
People climb atop a tree
They want to catch a glimpse of me
I’m the mystery. I’m the state
I’m your mistake. I’m your fate
Where you are is where you’d stay
I’m your God. Hear me say
The king shall live long
The king can do no wrong
Sing my song
The king can do no wrong
Hail the prince now. The king is gone
The queen is over. Don’t you mourn!
I take a step into the holy land
I watch the rest take a coward’s stand
I’m your king now. I’m your song
I’m your God who can do no wrong
I’ll keep you safe as long as I can see
Fear in your eyes just for me
I keep the secrets deep in my sleep while the mothers weep
I feed. I breed. I need the winter’s seed
Hear the winds call out my name
It’s a shame. It’s a shame
You aren’t here to watch me rise
I left you breathing with bleeding eyes
I’m your story. I am strong
I’m your lord who can do no wrong
I’m your savior. I’m your song
I’m your God who can do no wrong
Bow to my might. I am right. With this light, I’ll get you through the night
Watch the snow fall upon us all, big or small. Watch it fall
There is a world
Where people are always happy
Where there are no worries
I do not exist there
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This is my world
Where people are always crying
Where there is no light
I am the king here
The mirror knows my secrets
Far too many now
I never told her anything
She just found out somehow
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She pretends to be my friend
Looks right into my eyes
She knows all of my sins
And she even knows my lies
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She laughs at my suffering
Loves to see me in pain
I try resisting her but
She keeps coming back again
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My heavy head has an idea
“Smash her against the wall
Shatter her to pieces”
The end of it all
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But it is not so simple
I really need her with me
My heart has eyes
While the brain cannot see
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I guess I would have to live with it
There is no other way
I’ll stare into the mirror
And pass the day away
Frank Solanki 