Birthdays are like marriages

You smile and celebrate

While you know the victim

Has just lost his fate

For suffering is dense

And happiness is sparse

Birthdays are like marriages

Birthdays are a farce

Truth will destroy me once again

I wish I was a drop of rain

Falling down on earth

When I die I’ll feel no pain

For all that I was worth

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I wish I was a little bird

With wings to soar the sky

Every morning I’ll be heard

As I sing and fly

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I wish I was a better man

With no sin against my name

For I won’t be praying then

To help me heal my shame

The sky is pouring fire
Every drop is burning my skin
Like a wretched liar
That leaks of sins within
Futile it is to seek
A shelter for the flames inside
‘Tis better not to speak
And let the truth decide
What is written in my fate
Should I run or should I wait
What is right and what is not
What is lost and what is got

Mirrors are broken
Rules are broken
Promises are broken
So am I
Hearts are broken
So am I
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Wallet is lost
Memory is lost
Family is lost
So am I
Mind is lost
So am I
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Babies are crying
Shame is crying
Needs are crying
So am I
Clouds are crying
So am I
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Body is weak
Resistance is weak
Faith is weak
So am I
Men are weak
So am I
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Glass is empty
House is empty
Soul is empty
So am I
Thoughts are empty
So am I
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Battery is dead
Ideas are dead
Chester is dead
I will be too
Hopes are dead
I will be too

I can see you but you don’t see me
When you’re in need you call for me
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Invisible
I do your homework, take your blame
When you play your silly games
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Scapegoat
I stare at you, adore your smile
But you never talk a while
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Snub
You and your friends have a laugh
When you call me an ugly giraffe
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Clown
Your boyfriend puts me in my place
When he punches me in my face
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Punching Bag
You saw me cry at my desk today
But you didn’t have a word to say
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Ignore
Someday I’ll be on my way
Distant, yonder and faraway
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Nobody
Someday I won’t be there at all
But not a single tear would fall
Who am I? Who am I? I am Mr. Invisible

I keep walking this endless street
There is no one I do meet
In my head are a thousand thoughts
Fastened together with rough knots
A dim light I see afar
Guided by a lonely star
Save me from my own self
I am really of no help
Peaceful homes where people sleep
Pass me by as I weep
Alone I feel so incomplete
I keep walking this endless street
I am getting out of breath
Sometimes I feel that sudden death
Is better than pain and suffering
Better than I feel everything
So test my knees and test my heart
Until my weakened soul departs
Away to a distant foreign land
Where there’s nothing to understand
My empty heart just skipped a beat
I keep walking this endless street
Pick my sorrows and lay them down
Cover the streets of this endless town
I’d speak the truth if there was an ear
I’d tell my dreams if you were near
The birds they sing a desolate song
This is not where I belong
You think I’m happy, I am strong
I am weak and you are wrong
So I accept my defeat
I keep walking this endless street

The sky raised itself. It felt so warm

I waited for you with open arms

I felt every single thing except your heart

The softest breeze there ever was

Blew without a single cause

Tearing, watching my skin fall apart

A voice came down from heaven’s grace

Into this lonely, empty space

A message that my ears already knew

I cried a little, then I smiled

I sat there thinking for a while

The thing I had to let go was you

With that feeling I felt so light

Like I dropped a weight overnight

I never needed anybody else but me

I laughed at my former self

The one that cried and yelled for help

Such a small price to pay to be free

I have but one wish for now

Take my soul if you must

For a while I’d lie down

And watch the clouds go burst

Let it pour till I’m drenched

In the unforgiving rain

Fill up all my scars

The hurt and the pain

Then let me be drowned

I will not move from here

Until my eyes close forever

And my body disappear

Take me to a place where I can find good in everything

Where the flowers bloom, the stars they glow and there’s eternal spring

If the lord would grant me one last wish, I’d say I’d like to stay

With Him for ever as a friend and never go away

My heart and soul you can keep. I do not need it now

But also take all the worries that are resting on my brow

And free me from these chains that are residing in my head

I am so confused. I know not if I am living or if I am dead