The Man Who Lost His Sleep

In his heart, all the lies he would keep

The man who lost his sleep

Fearing the consequences, he would lie awake

For all the trust that he would break

And so he prayed to God on a particular night

And asked to be shown a guiding light

But never a voice, against his prayer did return

He believed himself to be unforgiven

Did he just happen to paint his whole life black

Or was there ever any way back?

He sought and sought. He sought and cried

And at a solution he arrived

He thought it would be better to end his life

Rather than telling the truth to his kids and wife

And so he knocked on the heaven’s door

And waited till the count of four

And the gates opened up very wide

The angels took him by their side

And showed him what his life could have been

If he had not succumbed within

And every picture and every scene

Rolled out right in front of him

His wife was upset and she let it show

The kids lost their favourite hero

But they were willing to pardon him

And were ready to start again

And never a step again did he take wrong

All his crimes seemed far too long

And as they rolled out the final scene

The man woke up from his dream

And saw his wife sleeping free

And kissed her head tenderly

And he knew what he had to do

Wake up tomorrow and be true

And though that night, the angels saw him weep

The man was thankful for he lost his sleep

69 thoughts on “The Man Who Lost His Sleep

  1. This is something that should be shared with the whole world. And the world must read. The message is not only for suicide prevention but for honesty and true penance… And true repentance is not missing the mark again after the pardon. And the poem is written so magnificently. I love it. Thank you for sharing.

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  2. Wowza, this is good, but more pointedly, it would seem you’ve been reading my thoughts (not a good confession for a devout Christian, but I’m often more honest than admirable). Having family is usually a good deterrent if you’ve got one. God bless you.

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      1. Loving myself is never a problem. It’s why I can be as open and free as I am. I have nothing but deep love for who I am. I know that God has great love for me. I have made big changes in my life because I know it in my core. I may not know what path it will be down or how far along it is, but once awakened you can not go back to sleep.

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  3. Having the answer to what you should do is always better than the wonderment. Even if it means painful decisions or scary ones. Are you feeling a weight lifted at having an answer?

    On a personal note, having been effected by suicide, I hope that would never be your answer and would always be a friend to you if this were to be autobiographical.

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