A Broken Man With Lots Of Gold

Rich and rich as I may be
I’m troubled by my memory
Yes those memories with thoughts
They tie my heart up in knots
Those thoughts are always full of you
Choke my veins through and through
You and all the things of past
Cut my breath and lungs apart
You’re in my head when I try to sleep
The reason why I wake and weep
For soon as you come to mind again
I’m reminded of this constant pain
All this pain I cannot hold
I’m a broken man with lots of gold
Rich and rich as I may be
I cannot erase my memory

Now That She Has Gone

Give me Loneliness for company
Give me strangers for friendship
Give me a heart that I once owned
Diseases to fill it with
Now that I am alone
Now that she has gone

Give me walls that can whisper
Give me a roof, a cracking roof
Give me a floor full of rodents
A hallucination proof
Now that I am alone
Now that she has gone
I can’t stand on my feet
I can’t stand my chattering teeth
I can’t stand on my own
Now that she has gone

Give me darkness for days
Give me anxiety for nights
Give me ignorance for life
Now that she has gone
Now that she has gone

Tomorrow When I Wake Up

Tomorrow when I wake up
I’m gonna need a shake-up
Cause I’ve had a little break-up
And there’s nothing I wanna take up
O’ Love

Well my soul will need some cleaning
Now that life has lost its meaning
When all I needed was a little love
And a shoulder for some leaning
O’ Love
O’ Love, look what you’ve made me do

Is there a hope that I can borrow
When I’m drowning in my sorrow?
Just a little light and a little smile
Should get me by tomorrow

Now there’s no reverting
To the state where I was flirting
When the pain is reasserting
Only to leave my heart more hurting

This is the end of my dreaming
I’ll sleep after screaming
That the sun has disappeared
And the moon has now stopped gleaming
O’ Love
O’ Love, look what you’ve made of me
O’ Love
O’ Love, is there no hope for me?
O’ Love
O’ Love
Love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love

Nine

I’m in love with an angel —
The girl who sits next to me
All my friends call it crushing
But it does seem love to me
When she steps in the classroom
My eyes are fixed on her
Just her presence makes me
Think I could live forever
All this feels so fine
To fall in love when you’re nine

In the classroom I do
Stupid and crazy stunts
Though it may seem foolish
It’s worth her every attention
They all call me crazy
They don’t know how I feel
I feel no thirst, no hunger
Having skipped my meal
Oh it feels so fine
To fall in love when you’re nine

At home I’m always dreaming
With her face in my head
Whether I’m watching tv
Or lying straight on my bed
My homework’s always pending
But I could hardly care
Just the mention of her
Brings home the sweetest air
All this feels so fine
I can’t wait to make her mine

Today I felt different
On my way to school
Later I found out that she
Had moved and it wasn’t cool
She left me with no message
No contact and no sign
Now there’s nothing that I
Want to make it mine
No, it doesn’t feel fine
To have your heart broken when you’re nine

If You Were A Heart

If you were a heart

I would be a beat

If you were a star

I would be the heat

If you were a damsel

I would be a knight

If you were a candle

I would be the light

Whatever you may be

I would be one too

You’re not into me

So I’m not into you

I Wanna Lock My Heart Away

I wanna lock my heart away

Never ever let her out

This world is just too evil

As my heart’s just found out

I wanna firmly lock the door

Throw away the key

Shut all the windows

In darkness, she would be

I’ll let her out if only

This world would see a change

But that doesn’t look so likely

So she will there remain

Thank You For Nothing

Thank you for teaching me

How to break a heart

How to kill the feelings inside

How to let go

Thank you for teaching me

That love could be temporary

That love could be impure

That love could be fake

Thank you for showing me

How to make false promises

How to lie to a loved one’s face

How to ignore someone

Thank you for proving

That I am stupid

That I am crazy

That I am weak

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you for everything

Thank you for nothing

A Dead Man Living

I cried myself to sleep

Knowing we’re apart

I woke up in the morning

With a hole in my heart

You are so close to me

Yet you are so far

I wish I could make good

The way that things are

The thoughts in my head are unforgiving

I’m nothing more than a dead man living

I have promised myself

That I will learn to let go

I will try to hold on

To all the things that I know

Sometimes I feel that

Everything’s alright

But I am only kidding

Myself in the night

I am in a state of constant seething

I’m nothing more than a dead man breathing

Should I run back to you?

Should I be running away?

If I change myself would

Fortune turn my way?

One moment I’m hopeful

The next I just quit

I’m fearing every step

Yet I’m scared to admit

The hours and days I just spend grieving

I’m nothing more than a dead man living

Well here is a warning

To all the boys and the girls

Love may seem pleasing

But it’s a terrible curse

The more that you love

The more you are hurt

It will clip all your wings

It will grind you to dirt

The angels can be quite unforgiving

I’m nothing more than a dead man living

A Love That Never Was

You made me climb a mountain

You made me swim a sea

I ran a hundred miles

For a love that never was

You pushed me off a cliff

Down a desolate ditch

With a love that never was

You took over my body

My heart and every limb

Left me empty and stranded

Like a love that never was

You bled me till I could bleed no more

You played me till I could no longer be played

Now love seems like an unjust cause

Because of a love that never was

Stay

Why do you believe

Everything that I say?

When I asked you to leave

I wanted you to stay