I still believe
Everything I heard
Every soft whisper
Every spoken word
…
I still remember
Every promise made
Every time that I
Watched it fade
…
I still recall
Every memory
Precious and painful
Of you and me
…
I still love
Everything you do
Everything you are
Everything that’s you
All the gifts
That you want—
I can’t afford to buy
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit to be your guy
…
A thousand flaws
You can find
In the blink of an eye
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit to be your guy
…
All the hurt
That I’ve brought
Have caused your eyes to cry
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit to be your guy
…
Your company
I will never
Be able to justify
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit to be your guy
…
You are right
When you say
“You might as well die.”
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit
I ain’t fit to be your guy
Will that rain ever come back
When you and I were together?
Will that rain ever come back?
That cursed, perfect weather?
Will that rain ever come back
When nature was at her best?
When you put your hand in my hand
And your head upon my chest?
Will that rain ever come back?
Those soft and gentle drops?
When time stood still for eternity
And the world was put to stops?
Will that rain ever come back
And clean me off my dirt?
Wash my sins and evil deeds
Wash away my pain and hurt?
Will that rain ever come back
When my world was just me and you?
Will that rain ever come back?
No, I don’t think so too
I lost my happiness
Lost my peace of mind
My appetite, my self-control
All was left behind
…
My self-respect was shattered
My ego was badly bruised
Innocence had gone missing
I was alone and confused
…
Darkness surrounded me except
For a little light from above
When I went diving, falling
Into the abyss called love
…
That light was all I needed
To help me dig a bit further
There I found a treasure chest
Belonging to no other
…
I opened the dusty treasure chest
And I was glad to find
My missing piece of happiness
My missing peace of mind
…
I also repaired my self-respect
My ego was at its best
Innocence was also retrieved
With the gems from the chest
…
Then I came to realise
That this bottomless pit
Is not as bad as it seems
If you do not quit
I wonder how far you have gone
Wonder if I scratch your mind
From the night till early dawn
I’m clutching at left-behinds
I wish that you could see me here
See me, and how much I’ve changed
I begged for a get-together
The stars won’t have it arranged
I will keep my pockets empty
Bide away my sleepless nights
Let the stars come then comfort me
I’ll take shelter in their lights
Your love is but a distant star
Thousands and thousands miles afar
Where all your splendid glories are
Away from any hurt or scar
…
Away from any hurt or scar
Where all your splendid glories are
Thousands and thousands miles afar
Your love is but a distant star
I am lonely. I am broken
With every lie that there is spoken
Now my life is full of lies
Let hope rain now from the skies
…
Every mistake I’ve ever made
Every friend that I’ve betrayed
Have come to haunt in guise
Let hope rain now from the skies
…
I am hurting. I am bleeding
Every step of mine’s misleading
Every night my old heart cries
Let hope rain now from the skies
…
The road to freedom seems so long
Every choice I make is wrong
Getting closer to my demise
Let hope rain now from the skies
…
I am scarred and I am burning
Every pain I’ve known is returning
Is it time to say goodbyes?
Let hope rain now from the skies
Do you remember the time
When you used to sing to me?
How every word pierced my soul?
How every note pulled the strings of my heart?
How your melody lingered on for ever?
Do you remember the time
When I would close my eyes
And drown in your soulful voice?
The days would pass by in humming
The nights would feel so short
Do you remember the time
When you transported me to another land?
Somewhere between space and heaven
Merely with your graceful tone
Do you remember the time
When you made me feel my heart-beats?
How you made my heart sing with you
When we had a loving duet?
Do you remember the time
When you used to sing to me?
You came in like a thunderstorm
You left like a gentle breeze
The void you created in my heart
Can now be never filled
Send my voice to her
Carry love with it
As the clock goes past four
Say I miss her still
And I always will
Like our glory days of yore
…
Now the wounds don’t heal
Now the thoughts don’t mend
The clouds refuse to outpour
Many things have changed
Nothing’s ever same
As our glory days of yore
…
Every night I cry
With her face in my
Broken mind; I implore —
Will I catch some sleep
If I cease to weep
For our glory days of yore?
…
Fate just took my heart
Far away from me
Across the ocean and shore
Arduous to cope
As I lie in hope
Of our glory days of yore
…
Someday I will be
With all my love in me
With every thing you adore
Then the clouds will rain
As we dwell again
In our glory days of yore
Frank Solanki 