When nobody loves me

I simply cry and weep

I feel mighty tired

But I can’t fall asleep

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When nobody loves me

I feel insecure

To banish all my thoughts

Is there any cure?

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When nobody loves me

There’s just Me and I

Myself then joins the glumness

We decide to die

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When nobody loves me

All the meaning’s lost

Death sends an invite

For a petty cost

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When nobody loves me

I tie myself a noose

I am just a step away

From all pain and abuse

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When nobody loves me

I just close my eyes

Say my final prayers and

Think of all the lies

Think about the fairytales

Eros and happy endings

That all the emotions are

Merely someone’s lendings

That love is a giant pie

And each will get a bite

Some may get a large chunk

Others will get a slight

The idea makes me laugh

To see everyone so starved

That’s how the world was formed

But not how I was carved

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When nobody loves me

I stop giving a care

Unbothered with anyone

Anytime, anywhere

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When nobody loves me

I don’t listen to what they say

This world may not be for me

But I am here to stay

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When nobody loves me

Unbound by their chains

I love myself a little

That love ever remains

The concept of friendship has been overused

Tales of great alliance just leave me bemused

I only ever had myself from end to end

That is all I ever needed for a friend

Darkness is my brother

Evil is my sis

Sadness is my mother

Dad’s antonym of bliss

Trouble, trouble, trouble

Trouble is my family

…

Despair is my nephew

Wicked is my wife

Guess what’re my children?

The antonym of life

Trouble, trouble, trouble

Trouble is my family

…

Trouble is my second name

Trouble is my house

Trouble is my pet tortoise

The cat and the mouse

Trouble, trouble, trouble

Trouble is my family

What good is the eternal sunshine

Outside my window

When there’s eternal darkness

Following my shadow?

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What good is the soulful song

Sung by nightingales

When there are loud noises

Inside my chaotic head?

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What good is the mighty God

In the heavens above

When my heart is filled with hatred

Instead of selfless love?

I walked a mile to heaven

And there I found a seat

Between the daisies and eleven

Sparrows who fondly tweet

Amongst the tweeting, chirping

I found my peace and quiet

With no sound usurping

The calmness of the sight

While I gazed and kept a-gazing

The hours passed me by

And all this while this amazing

Place stuck in my eye

When another hour came

I rose and chose to leave

Thinking that the heaven’s same

Where ever I may believe

The more I live, the more I believe

That we are all part of a videogame

That there are levels some of us may never reach

Hidden areas and secrets, unknown powers and potentials — things we may never know

That God holds the joystick and controls everything

That we are mere characters for amusement

And all we have is one life

I am lonely. I am broken

With every lie that there is spoken

Now my life is full of lies

Let hope rain now from the skies

…

Every mistake I’ve ever made

Every friend that I’ve betrayed

Have come to haunt in guise

Let hope rain now from the skies

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I am hurting. I am bleeding

Every step of mine’s misleading

Every night my old heart cries

Let hope rain now from the skies

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The road to freedom seems so long

Every choice I make is wrong

Getting closer to my demise

Let hope rain now from the skies

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I am scarred and I am burning

Every pain I’ve known is returning

Is it time to say goodbyes?

Let hope rain now from the skies

Son, be not afraid of Death

‘Tis my advice to you

Life will hurt you more

Than Death could ever hope to

A drop fell from a cloud

A fruit fell from a tree

A tear dropped from your eye

Then I wasn’t me

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I tasted that tiny drop

Bit off that fallen fruit

Wiped that tear with happiness

Then I became me

Mom, I feel so tiny

When I look at the endless sky

Will I ever grow up?

Watch intimately the birds fly?

Mom, I feel so tiny

Helpless and insignificant

Is there no magic potion

To speed up the adolescents?

Mom, I feel so tiny

A misfit on this giant Earth

Looking at the stars above

Contemplating my righteous worth

Mom, I feel so tiny

Respond to my questions and qualms

Do all the children have to

Follow the lines on their little palms?

“Do not worry,” Mommy said

Her eyes filled with a lot of pain

“Once you happen to grow up

You’d wish to be a child again”