How To Say I Love You Without Saying I Love You #2

How To Say I Love You Without Saying I Love You #1

Every Time I Hold You In My Arms

My heart aches
A shiver runs through me
Every time I hold you
For I fear that it may
Be the last time
That I am holding you
In my arms

It is irrational
It most certainly is
But how do I explain to my senses
Who have experienced nothing
But loss and pain
That sometimes something
Is meant to be?

How do I come up
With an explanation
To tell my body
To let go of the grieving
That it is time to move on
Start afresh and
Open the doors to
A bright sunshine?

The more I delay
The worse it gets
This false comfort is a curse
It haunts me to know
How I am keeping love at bay
Every day of my life
When I should be
Embracing it with all my affections

I know better
Yet I cannot summon the courage
To act better
The traumas of yester-years are
Etched deep in my soul
They caution me at every move
They warn me at every step
I, foolishly, yield to them
Telling myself that the next time
I shall be wiser
Instead of being a slave to their whims
Yet that tomorrow never comes

They are not wrong either
They are here to protect me
When I say I am hurting
Who is in fact hurting?
It is my senses
It is them
They undergo the trauma
They get wounded
They have to do the healing
How can I blame them for trying to protect themselves?
Do I call them selfish?
Isn’t that what we all do?
Brave are those who can overcome these obstacles
And face life as it comes
Me? I am weak
Or in other words, my senses are

So yes, my heart aches
A shiver runs through me
Every time I hold you
In my arms
For I fear that it may
Be the last time
That I am holding you
In my arms

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Light It Up With A Thousand Suns

Step inside my empty heart
Show me what is light for once
Light it up
Light it up with a thousand suns
Light it up

Your eyes look home to me
It’s a place I cannot be
Or so I thought
I won’t let it make me stop
I will not

All we have is us
It’s enough
Let it rain or shine
Or be rough

Come let us walk the fields
Holding hands beneath the sky
Where we lie
Two rocks gazing at the sky
Where we lie

All we have is us
It’s enough
Let it rain or shine
Or be rough
Hold my hand in yours
Leave it there
For all eternity
I don’t care

Come let us walk the fields
Show me what is light for once

There Will Come A Day

I believe that there will come a day
I believe with all my heart
When all our troubles will sink
To the bottom of this sea called Time
Lose themselves in the unfathomable depths
Or be eaten by mysterious creatures

I believe that there will come a day
My vision shall not fail me
When the seed of love begins to sprout
Upwards and upwards into the sky
With firm roots hidden underneath
Forming a solid foundation

I believe that there will come a day
I have eternal hope within me
When the stars align themselves perfectly
Pouring down serenity from the heavens
For us to collect in baskets
To store and use as we may please

I believe
I believe
With honesty and sincerity
In the power of the future
In Time’s ability to change
To flow from east to west
And sometimes from west to east
I believe in that future
And the future’s beautiful
And the future’s ours

Only Love

When we begin to see the stuff that we are made of
We begin to understand that we are enough
When we find the purpose of this existence
Then everything begins to make sense
From dust to dust
We circle the years
At every distrust
We hide our tears
But only one thing bounds us through it all
Only one thing catches us when we fall
It is love
Love, love, love
And only love

In a world that’s constantly gathering pace
On every face I see its trace
In a world where so much is unknown
One true light shines all alone
It shows its form
In many ways
Amidst a storm
It sends its rays
Is there anything else in this accidental sphere
That pervades all life forms sans any fear
It is love
Love, love, love
And only love

In every natural wonder that we see around us
With each new learning that bounds us
The guiding light that tells us right from wrong
The only friend we needed all along
Our only hope
When all is gone
The only rope
We need hold on
The one item we need not ever buy
The one resource which is endless in supply
It is love
Love, love, love
And only love

To Be A Better Man

It’s not that I haven’t told you
It’s not that you don’t know
But I know you’d like to
Hear me say it once more
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for what I’ve done
For the way that I treated you
That made you feel alone

I gave in to the monsters
Living inside my head
I nutured them far too long
When I should have cared for you instead
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for what I’ve done
I should have seen my errors
Before the chance was gone

Can I just take this moment
To make you understand?
Can I just take this moment
To hold your hand in my hand
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for who I am
If you would forgive me
I promise to be a better man

Meet Me At The Station

I’m swallowing my pain because I
Think it’s better to do that than
Smashing plates on the floor
I’m walking out quietly because I
Think it’s a more mature way of
Dealing with arguments than
Running an axe through the walls
Of the house we built together
But hey it’s just me and my useless opinion
You know I could be wrong
But hey can’t you see at least I’m not crazy

Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting for a train
That takes me far away from here
Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting

Who would have thought that it would be
So ugly and filthy?
Who would have thought that it would seem
Like we’re just beginning
To understand each other
Every scream, every insult, every abuse
Chips a piece off of our masks

Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting for a train
That takes me far away from here
A couple of tickets lie in the pocket
Of my shirt that you ripped this morning
Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting

Perhaps it’s the place that fills our heads
With toxic thought and endless distress
One wonders what it would be like
To live in a better place
Where happiness comes your way every day
Where music lights the house
Where birds float outside the window
Where flowers bring fragrance to the door
One wonders
Hard and long

Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting for a train
That takes us far away from here
We can board it together
Leave this mess behind
Don’t worry about it
We can start anew
Meet me at the station
I’ll be waiting

Love Is A Thunderbolt

It originates in the heavens
In the palm of a deity
Vibrant, electrifying
Bubbling with incredible energy

When it strikes
It is no ordinary event
It changes you completely
You are not the same person anymore

It sends shivers down your spine
Raises your hair on ends
Grabs a hold of all your emotions
Dumps them in one basket

It is frightening, terrifying
Yet equally majestic and captivating
It is deadly and powerful
Yet commonplace and beautiful